did you ever have one of those days. were you have been made to feel worthless as if you were a nobody and the only thing your good for is to being used constantly to were your left alone evWry day for 14 hours at a time  in a 40' foot by 15 square foot room with three dogs  that make up this group a pure white 14 month old maltypoo female who is pregnant and ready to drop any day as her real parent leaves her here with us because he can' trust one single person in his own family enough to take care of his dog that he got strung out on meth from the 6 months she drove around with him in the cab of his truck as he exhaled large hits of meth pipe smoke into the cab of his truck 3to 6 times a hour every single day causing the dog named Maggi 2nd and  to suffer spastic siezures  wild very aggresive biting out burst constant barking at everylittle sound made no mind span at all. has not any cognitive skills of simple understanding  no ability to learn  even the easiest of commands such as sit lay down then your friend who dropped the dog off for a few days so they could catch there breath for a moment and snacth a nap for there exhaustion caused from the Lucerne Valley meth club who never leave him alone every hour of the night or day they come begging he has to run and our place is were he always runs sleeps it of then splits this time it was different this time he needed to go to the emergency room ASAP but that takes three days of us convencing him and telling him he needs to go now after us spending the last two nights awake listening to him toss and roll yelling out in pain he had not had a bowel movement for two weeks and had not urinated for 5 days he was going into toxic shock he was being poisend plus he was already taking stuff for his cloggedmain heart valve they said he had about 15% of blood flow which was causing all kinds of different problems and he ignored all the advice and did not take his meds he said fuck them they dont know what there taking about he said ill read there reports and what they suggest and make my own med schedual the nextmorning at 5 am he said you guys Ithink I need to go to the hospital now we got up she jumped in the truck we got him inthere I said I got the dogs and they went he was in a very bad way dyiny of toxic shock syndrone from fieces leaking through his intestine walls from being compacted and urick acid (urine) seeping into him from holding three lieters of bloody urine in his bladder and kidneys yep he was in real bad shape so they admitted him in to inland emprie hospital with a life flight and here I was with two dogs with 4th stage cancer matastisized through out all of my bones my prostate eaten completely away inside our 40 x15 room hundreds of dollars in pee pads cooking each meal 3 x a day fresh chicken and veggies fres beef with veggies  every single day then 3 days go by we here nothing  from him or his family we call the hospital the wont let us talk to him only his brother keep in mind we been friend 58 years we grew up together our whole life 5 of the maybrier boys and three of the johnson and graf boys we all moved to the mountains after high school and colledge  go forward 25 years and here we are me 69  and his older brother Greg 69 then chris 67 and pat 63 leaving Matt the baby at 61  so we call the hspital the 3rd day and they say he has already checked himself out against Dr orders he disapeers for 9 hours finaly we find him he went back home and forgot his dog that had been here for 4 days but now something had changed his dog had a puppie